Just trying to get through.

So, I have about fifty things I needs to get done in the next week, and that doesn't include the Women's Retreat stuff I have to do for church. Ugh. I think I may be experiencing some panic/stress symptoms, but I am not going to tell very many people that, cuz I don't' want them asking me if I am okay all the time. I know that sounds stupid, but I just get annoyed with it. Anywho- Went to the library today and got a couple books, because reading always makes me feel a little better. It helps to distract from all the craziness going on all around me, and I need that right now. Music is helping me with that, too, but not as much as I need it to. I got all the utilities changed over today. That is going to be expensive. =( I know, I am whining today, but it's just how I feel! lol... I don't even want to move. So it's annoying. Gracen is at school, and it doesn't help that I said I would watch two little boys in the next couple days, not just the one I normally have. Stupid, I know, but we couldn't afford to not have them these two days with all of the expense of moving in the first place. Hopefully I will be able to get more done tomorrow and tonight than I have during the day today. We will see... For some reason, writing on here really helps me feel more put together. I don't know why, I don't really care if anyone read's it or not, it just helps me put down my thoughts. I need to do this more often. On top of that, I love to type, and for some reason find it very relaxing. Sometimes at night, when I can't sleep, I type in my head just to calm down. I am so weird! lol... At least I can admit it. =P

All things said, I <3 my God, my husband, and my sons more than anything, and I find my happiness in being with them. I just need to remember to breath every now and then, and it will all be over in time. Patience is such a hard thing to remember. And trying not to eat my anxiety away. I have done pretty good the last two days. Although, I did have two cupcakes today after lunch. Oh wait, three. =( That was pretty stupid, but I will hopefully burn it off in the next day or so.