hello... It's Valerie again. It's been well over a year since I started this blog, and lots of things have happened since then! We decided to have another baby, and he came into our lives three weeks early on April 26th, 2010. His name is Braden Dean... I love him more every day! He is such a happy, easy going baby. I don't know what I did to deserve such wonderful children, but they are amazing.
We are moving again, back into the house that we originally lived in when we first moved here. Weird, I know, but it was the best deal for the size house we need. =) Life takes some interesting turns... We are thinking about buying a house in the next couple months, so we may end up moving again. Who knows? lol...
I am the heaviest I have ever been. I have never been teeny tiny. Even in high school when I was total muscle, I was a size ten jeans. But I felt good, and was confident with myself and my body. Right now I am probably around 230 lbs... and I feel it. I hate it, every day, all day. I feel like I don't eat a lot... but I know that I tend to eat when I am bored or anxious about something, and since I had Braden, all I crave are fried foods, sweets and salty stuff. All the worst stuff possible. I never used to like that stuff at all, so it's weird for me to continue craving things I have not liked my entire life. (I have always liked sweets, I guess it's the salt and fried stuff that I am talking about.) What's funny is that I have an amazing life. I seriously have the most amazing husband ever, and the most adorable, loving, boys I could ever asked for. I just don't understand what my problem is. I would love to have a gym membership, but we just don't have the money for it. And probably won't in the near or far away future. It sucks. We have a treadmill, but seriously, that is only interesting for so long. I love to walk outside, but with all the rain here, that is next to impossible. So, these are all my excuses...
So, one of my goals is to run a 5k race this summer. It takes place on July 4th, and I am so bad at finishing goals, that I really hope I finish this one. I am truly horrible at finishing this kind of thing. For some reason I just see it as impossible, and I just want to quit before it's even started. My second goal is to fit into my wedding dress again, which is a size 14, by the end of this summer. I would guess I need to loose about 90 pounds to get into it. Ugh.
Through all of this, I am still nursing Braden, which I love to do, but I can't wait to have my body back. I worry about cutting my caloric intake too much, and not providing enough for him. Is this stupid? Who knows. I just worry about it . My milk supply isn't great most days anyway, and since he started solids, it's been pretty low. Luckily he loves drinking out of a cup, so it's not too bad.
Now, on to my children:
Gracen is 5, and is in kindergarten. He is so cuddly and handsome, I love him so much. He is very smart, and already doing 1st grade school work. He is reading really well. Bad news is, he may need glasses. At the doctor's office, he had a hard time seeing the little pictures. I guess we will see.
Payton is now 3, soon to be 4... my oh my how time flies! He is just precious. His red hair and mischievous eyes are just too much for me to handle some days! He has this personality that I love... I love him more than words can say. =) He is in preschool, which he does so well in.
Braden is nine months old tomorrow, and he is just the happiest, most amazing baby ever. He has slept through the night since he was 5 weeks old, and he is just adorable. People are constantly saying how happy and handsome he is. =) I will post some updated pics of them with this one.
Kyle and I have been married for eight years! Time flies when your having fun... =) He has taught me so much about myself, and he loves me so well. He is handsome, smart, kind, caring... I love him more than anything. I could not imagine life without him.
So, that's the biggest update I can manage. I have got to go get the boys in bed. Thanks for reading. =)
1 comment:
Aww Valerie, I love that your posting a blog. I didn't know you even started one.
I am sorry you are struggling with your weight. I am full of advice about how to lose weight since I did lose 100lbs doing weight watchers. If you'd like I can give you some pointers.
Just like you have told me, I think you are one of the most beautiful women I know and you truly inspire me to be a better person.
It is hard to try and lose weight while nursing but it is possible. They say you can subtract up to 250 calories a day out of the 500 extra they say to eat for your milk supply. If it started to lessen your milk supply there are herbs you can take to help it. I know you know all that stuff already. When I first started my journey I focused on the food aspect for the first 3 or 4 months. Surprisingly even tho you say you don't eat a lot, it could be that your not eating enough and it has slowed down your metabolism.I would keep a food journal for a few days and don't change your eating habits and really be aware of what it is that your consuming and see where that takes you?
I hope I was of some help. Much love!
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